Infinite.

‘and in that moment, I swear we were infinite.’

If you’ve ever read The Perks in being a Wallflower then you will be familiar with the quote you just read.

The other night, I may have been under slight influence of alcohol, but I ended up on the top of this hill (I knew where I was I didn’t just go to a random hill) and it was around midnight, I laid back and just looked up at the stars. And I don’t think you can describe either the feeling or the beauty of this. You look up and realise how small you are, how big the universe is, how so much more is yet to come. 

I think my favourite thing is you start to notice the stars moving, and I just watched the odd ones travel across this darkness and as you watch it you notice more stars around where you’re looking.

I wasn’t up there alone I was with a friend who as much as it was nice to spend this night with him I couldn’t stop thinking about how perfect this would have been to spend with someone else. Then I realise that someone else is a dick and I go back to focusing on the stars. Because as I think back to that moment, I don’t remember much of the conversation going on. I just remember lying there and thinking this was one of the best moments of my life. I don’t know if it was the alcohol making it seem cooler than it was but have you seriously ever just laid there and stared literally into space.

To top it off as we were lying there I remember not paying much attention to the sky as I was talking to someone else, then suddenly a flash of light in the sky, but not just a flash of light, a shooting star flash of light. And its one of those moments where you stop and think ‘did I really just see that?!’ Luckily I wasn’t the only one thinking this. So ofc after that moment I kept wanting to witness another just to see the real beauty in it, sadly this did not happen, but I still have the moment of seeing one.

I hope one day ill get to do this again and it will be with someone that will make the night more perfect and we shall talk about silly shit and just stare and we will be staring for hours and having heart to hearts, sharing stories, secrets, reminiscing, getting to know each other, before we realise what time it is and we should go back to socialising with others. This could be a friend, a best friend, or a boyfriend. Whoever you are. I hope you witness the true beauty I felt and will feel again.

Cause in that moment, I swear I was infinite. 

Just keep breathing...

Its been a while since ive listened to a song for the first time and within the first 20seconds im in tears. This could be one of four reasons.
1. Its my favourite band.
2. The emotion behind the song.
3. Travis.
4. All of the above.
If you guessed 4 congratulations you won yourself a cookie. Eat it with pride.

We the kings released their new song ‘Just Keep Breathing’ and holy cow. I had high hopes for it mainly because Travis seemed so proud of it and he said he wrote it from the experience of being bullied his whole life. So I knew it wasn’t going to be some shitty pop song. Also the fact that they released it on their own and it got to number 5(currently) in the charts just blows my mind. To me they’re my boys, they’re the boys I stand out for HOURS in the rain and snow freezing my tits off just to see. Even when I’m sat on a curb, freezing, dying for hours and end up standing at the back of the gig because you’re seconds away from passing out yet still manage to have an amazing time. That’s my We The Kings. Not Chart topping big timers.
But for the past twenty four hours, Just Keep breathing had been on repeat. Im not saying its good just because im a fan, Im saying its good because it IS. Like no matter what situation you’re going through if you listen to this song, even just one line of it might help.

I’ve been a fan of We The Kings for three years, since early 2010 during my Radio Disney days, not even going to lie I used to love that shit. Id put it on and fall asleep listening to it, my favourite was when it was Halloween and all the American teenies would ring up and say they were going as Hannah Montana for Halloween. God I love Americans. But I heard a song called Check Yes Juliet, and it was one that they kept playing that I eventually googled the little lyrics that had stuck into my head to find the masterminds behind this song. Boom hello We The Kings.

Its quite funny because im currently reading through all my old tweets (gone from 09 to 11 oh how embarrassing I was) But the amount of times I tweeted ‘The Story of your life is so twisted because someone out there is missing everything you do’ is hilarious to think that song has changed/saved my life. Hence why I write Smile kid on my wrist every day. Although that makes me sound like I used to cut myself- I didn’t. But there is other ways you can harm your body when you don’t want to be alive anymore. When you’ve hit that low, you never want to go back there, so when I felt myself crawling back into that hole of darkness, I started realising how much I loved the line ‘Smile kid theres only one way out’ Obviously the whole phrase couldn’t fit on my wrist, but Smile kid could. And So it has stayed since January 2012. Since then it has been a constant reminder just to smile and has honestly helped me from stopping going back to what I call my ‘shut down mode’

So when Travis mentions the new single is about how he has been bullied throughout his life, and when you’ve just come out of a small shut down mode phase and your heads still a little messed up, hearing the song made me cry, and ive had it on repeat since. This has made me waay more excited for their album release this summer.
I can’t even remember the last time I was this excited to buy a CD, probably cause the last CD I bought was Nick Jonas and the administration… btw that album is actually incredibly good! But I feel like im going to be a proud mother when it is released because of my fangirlness for Mr Charles Trippy. I loved We The Kings before he joined the band and I guess it was just fate for my idol to join my favourite band, and this is his first album with and the excitement you can feel when he talks about it just warms your heart.

‘2 am too tired to sleep, when what you wants not what you need, when these walls don’t feel like home, remember that you’re not alone.’