Infinite.

‘and in that moment, I swear we were infinite.’

If you’ve ever read The Perks in being a Wallflower then you will be familiar with the quote you just read.

The other night, I may have been under slight influence of alcohol, but I ended up on the top of this hill (I knew where I was I didn’t just go to a random hill) and it was around midnight, I laid back and just looked up at the stars. And I don’t think you can describe either the feeling or the beauty of this. You look up and realise how small you are, how big the universe is, how so much more is yet to come. 

I think my favourite thing is you start to notice the stars moving, and I just watched the odd ones travel across this darkness and as you watch it you notice more stars around where you’re looking.

I wasn’t up there alone I was with a friend who as much as it was nice to spend this night with him I couldn’t stop thinking about how perfect this would have been to spend with someone else. Then I realise that someone else is a dick and I go back to focusing on the stars. Because as I think back to that moment, I don’t remember much of the conversation going on. I just remember lying there and thinking this was one of the best moments of my life. I don’t know if it was the alcohol making it seem cooler than it was but have you seriously ever just laid there and stared literally into space.

To top it off as we were lying there I remember not paying much attention to the sky as I was talking to someone else, then suddenly a flash of light in the sky, but not just a flash of light, a shooting star flash of light. And its one of those moments where you stop and think ‘did I really just see that?!’ Luckily I wasn’t the only one thinking this. So ofc after that moment I kept wanting to witness another just to see the real beauty in it, sadly this did not happen, but I still have the moment of seeing one.

I hope one day ill get to do this again and it will be with someone that will make the night more perfect and we shall talk about silly shit and just stare and we will be staring for hours and having heart to hearts, sharing stories, secrets, reminiscing, getting to know each other, before we realise what time it is and we should go back to socialising with others. This could be a friend, a best friend, or a boyfriend. Whoever you are. I hope you witness the true beauty I felt and will feel again.

Cause in that moment, I swear I was infinite.